Weekends are hard

Everyone looks forward all week for the weekends, usually because it is family time. So once the weekend rolls around, I kind of dread it. 13, days, just 13 days since Sean left, only 352 to go. Wow, that seems like forever. I have been missing him like crazy the past few days. I think the lack of contact also does not help the situation.

From his facebook:Sean Diepeveen is tired of Kuwait ready to go up north. it is too hot and to many sand storms to be here. it is going to be a long year in Iraq

I feel really bad for him, even though we miss him here, he misses everything going on here.

Yesterday I took Sophia to the ENT. She has to have her tonsils out and it will be done on 9/11/09. It is scary to think about, I hope she will do OK but she is a bit of a drama queen. She will only go to school 3 days before she has her surgery. I worry so much about her, with her learning delay and speech problems, I do hope this will be the year for her to turn it all around.

I also need to work on sleep. My sleep patterns have been so screwed up which leaves me tired and cranky. I am going to try to go to bed early tonight. I am about 2/3 way though The Time Travelers Wife. It is so good, I want to see the movie but I am scared of 1. crying, 2. being disappointed, 3. thinking of how it is like my life, always waiting. I really feel for Claire.

Week 1

Well, Week 1 of 52 weeks is down. This has been a vary long busy week. It has been filled with get togethers with good friends, new friends, acquaintances and family. I managed to have something planned 6 of the 7 days. I watched 2 movies, Julie and Julia and Transformers 2(again). Bad part, I fell asleep while watching both of them. My sleep patterns are so screwed up. I managed to do what I said I would not do during this deployment, wait by the computer. Sean had IMed me saying he was going to dinner and would be back. He never came back but I checked my messenger 20 million times, my Internet connection and tied myself to the house waiting for him to get online so I can talk to him. I should know better, my life needs to move on even though he is not here and it is not good for me to wait for him.

I started the cleaning/decluttering process.
X- Laundry Room
X- Kitchen
X- Living Room
X- Kids Bathroom
X- Girls Room
- Master Bed
- Master Bath
- Boy Room
- Garage
- Yard

This is something I need to do, I need to get my house in order. Once it is in order, I can start the year on a new foot. I have a few things I need to put on craigslist. So much to do so little time. I just need to get my energy back up and really focus on the things that are important to me and for the kids.

This is it!

The countdown came and went now it is the 4 of us waiting the next 363 days until we are a family unit again. I guess I could say 5 of us waiting, we will be waiting over here, he will be waiting over there. I have been super busy since Monday when he left, friends visiting, visiting friends, now it is just us at home. Today our first full day home, it was very depressing :laugh: I did get so much done, cleaned and organized the kitchen, laundry room and coat closet. Tomorrow is another day and I will have more places to clean and organize. Things are starting to slow down. One thing that has really been lacking is the amount of sleep I need to function. I do hope soon it will get better. Tonight, I have a plan of going to bed early and getting a great nights rest.

The kids are doing well. It has been hard for them, they break my heart. I can deal with this but they did not ask for this. I guess that is life.

Another busy Summer

Where does time go, I have no idea. In the past few weeks, I now have a 7 year old instead of a 6 year old. I am a year older but getting better with age. Time is counting down, less then a month of enjoying Sean being around before he goes back to Iraq.... again. The garden is doing well, I am running out of room. I think next year it will just have to be bigger.

My tomitillo plant is bigger then my 5 year old. My beautiful broccoli is growing like crazy and my zucchini is producing by the handful.

I am still on week 6 of couch to 5K. One day I will finish this program! I am on book 3 of Sookie Stackhouse books. I have not figured out a way to read while running on the treadmill. I tried it once, it did not go well.

The 4th of July is 2 days away. Wow, it does not feel like that long ago at all we celebrated last year. We did not go crazy buying fireworks but we still walked out spending more then what we planned on spending. So another busy Summer is going by way to quick. I just want to hold on to the next few weeks and not let them go.

Being an adult is overrated!

You know when you have 8 million things to do but cannot seem to get them done, that is me. My list of things to do is overflowing. Next week I turn over the role of President at Joey's preschool to the next sucker, oops I mean, leader. I have 2 weeks left of school then I am done and I plan on taking a break until June! Then there is the house, so much needs to be done. I want to have fun though. I do not want to me mowing the lawn, I want to be out wake boarding or riding my motorcycle! It sucks being an adult. Maybe I will go running another thing I need to do but I hate!

Wii Fit

After avoiding everything I have to do, school work, yard work and house work, I decided to play Wii Fit. This thing can be fun, I always wondered why I do not play with it more often.

1. It is good for me.

2. Keeps me from gaining weight.

3. Can be a waste of time.

A big waste of time is what I did last night but I did get 30 fit points put into my bank. I think my new goal is to give myself a half hour per day 5 days per week and get my butt on there. I could also give myself a half hour tonight to actually do some dishes, but my Wii fit is so much more fun and good for me. Or I could catch up on my school work, but is that really goood for me? Maybe I will make my Wii goal once my house is cleaned and school work is done, I wonder how many years away that will be??!!

Good Moving

What I would like to be doing right now...

I would rather be snowboarding. The end of the season has hit. I find it so depressing. For once in my life, I have dreaded Summer and warm weather.

I am counting down the months until I can unpack my board and get back to doing what I found I love.

The funny part is, I could have been doing this for the past 13 years. It took me 13 years after my first lesson to get on a board again. 13 wasted years of not snowboarding because when I first tried, I thought it was not fun. In those 13 years I had 3 kids and moved 8 times and have lived in 4 different states, I guess that is not really wasted time.

I am not a good snowboarder, I actually kind of suck. I will get better though. Each time I have gone out, I have pushed myself. Pushing feels good. I think that will be my new goal, to push myself in what ever I do.

My next goal, to master the art of wake boarding. I guess I should be excited for Summer.